Thursday, July 30, 2009

The faster I go the further behind i seem to be----
That's been my motto for this week---worked my ass of and see very little results---ah well....
We did the farmers market this am and that was fun---I always seem to like being there even tho a reasonable person would shudder at the work involved in setting up a booth for a few hours.
The garden is doing well---but---the tomatoes are still green and our corn didn't work out---the corn is our fault---we didn't plant it right since we really never expected it to actually grow. It fooled u
s by growing and producing no corn---you killed Kenny you bastards---it cries out to me. This week I ordered supplies for both the urban homestead and the vehicle walk out bag. I have water barrels, full at the moment, but my planning on insuring good drinking water was spotty at best. Water purification tabs--bleach etc. So realizing this flaw i ordered one of those pump water filtration systems from Switzerland that you can drop into the love canal, pump the handle, and out the other end comes great, pure water. Costs like the devil but worth it in the long run---i feel like I have a much more self-sufficient water supply at home now with the addition of this hand-pumped system. Anything that gets great reviews from jungle missionaries is OK with me. So pure water at the urban homestead is now checked off.
I also purchased a one man Eureka tent for my vehicle walk out bag. There has been weirdness at work surrounding the upcoming swine flu event. It became apparent to me that there is the remote chance that i may be unable to free my vehicle from my workplace and I may need to hump(walk) the 38 miles from work to home. So there are big changes afoot on my vehicle bag. What was an "emergency kit" now becomes a full fledged, ground covering hiking outfit. In my part of New Mexico a tent for shade is an absolute---one part of the route home covers ground where there is no shade for 16 miles. I found this Eureka, 3lb, one man tent on sale. The perfect item to shade me during the day for sleep and then walk at night. My new Rucksack is out and My Lowe Alpine internal frame pack is in the car. Other items needed to be added or replaced, more food, water capacity, hiking boots Shermagh the addition of items necessary for covering this amount of ground under the local conditions. Someday I'll tell you about why I have to consider this option but not now. That was this week. My mind was too bummed out to reach anything of any value.

When you heard the blurbs or talk that the economy is getting better read these links and come back to the real world:

Flags are too expensive for this city to keep up:
This state cannot pay anyone for awhile--and it's not California:
Seems like disability claims are up---I wonder why?
Post office is hurting:
A Florida Condo development with one family living there---they can't get out--
Arizona quality of life down the tubes but not to hear them talk about it----
These are just a small few of the news stories out and around that seem to contradict the good times are coming again back spin.........

One of the odd things I am interested in is Neanderthals.
I follow the subject when i can---collect books and suppose that this issue is the answer i would give to the standard time travel question. You know, the one that goes: if you could travel back in time to one era to find an answer to one thing---for me it would be Neanderthals. I'm not going to go into all the back and forth arguing the scientific dudes do over speech/lack of speech--cannibalism--growth rate of Neandertal children----Neanderthal vs. Homo Sapien Sapien---blah-blahblah--blahblah. We've mapped their DNA and they were our brothers. That is an absolute. Criminologist's have reconstructed the faces of their children from fossil skulls. There is just too much back and forth on what our brothers were, how they lived, how we lived with them for 30,000 years and how they went away. You can read too much on a subject...I think that is where i am at with this...My answer to the question of why did Neanderthals die out has gotten simpler over time rather than more complex. The more i read on the issue the more confused i get and the more useless the smart guy theories seem to be. So this is my answer---the Serenity theory----Neanderthals stayed the same for over 150,000 years without changing much. Maybe they got tired and maybe they just laid down one night and didn't get back up again.

One of the small jewels scattered about the net is---AfriGadget.
A collection of stories, instructions, photo's-- displaying/describing Hack-Tech, Junk-Tech, making do, inventing with what you have.....from Africa---where creating something from nothing is a requirement. If you are at all interested in making your own technology you need to bookmark this site. Great idea's there.

"Studies into clinical depression have yielded similar findings, leading to the development of an intriguing, but still controversial, concept known as depressive realism. This theory puts forward the notion that depressed individuals actually have more realistic perceptions of their own image, importance, and abilities than the average person. While it’s still generally accepted that depressed people can be negatively biased in their interpretation of events and information, depressive realism suggests that they are often merely responding rationally to realities that the average person cheerfully denies."


Friday, July 24, 2009

My previous post was---a slightly depressing free flowing apologies...i/we are working on planning an airstream. Work however is a whole 'nother issue.

The Swine Flu has NOT simply gone away. There are an estimated 100,000 cases in Great Britain. This is more cases in one country right now than all countries previously involved in the pandemic scare several months ago combined.
The SF H1N1/09 virus should rotate back to the United States as soon as cooler weather sets in. The major question is in what mutated form will the H1N109 return---mild or deadly? My understanding is that the virus does not transmit airborne
as effectively in heat which is why we have the cold/flu season. It is estimated that on the next rotation of the virus somewhere between 12 to 24% of the American Public could get SF----This rotation of pandemics, this cycle, is not at all unusual. The Spanish Flu of 1918 displayed similar characteristics. A first run of mild flu with a low death rate---followed by an immense death rate on the second run.....and a lower 3rd cycle death rate, until the disease cycled into non-lethal status...this is normal virus procedure.
If you are not following a self-sufficient path You have an approximate 90 day window--- if you live an existence of dependence on society to provide for you STOP NOW---
Stockpile food, water, and mouth/nose masks. These items may become impossible to find as the world around you gets sick...people do not drive resupply trucks sick with the Flu...The best defense will be to hermit up. If you restrict contact with suspected individuals and especially eliminate your involvement in crowd situations your statistical possibility of infection is reduced. If this is impossible during the initial flu outbreak warnings, WASH YOUR HANDS consistently, do not eat at public restaurants and wear a mouth/nose mask --------followed immediately by bunkering up at your home as soon as possible.
There has been the first "healthy human" death from the H1N109 flu in Britain according to BBC reports..that is active, pre-flu disease present to assist the weakening of the patient in combining with SF leading to death...this was the first death from septic shock due to the specific influenza with no other factors in Britain.
There are also reports of tamaflu (or tamiflu as it may be spelled also referred to as Oseltamivir,) resistant cases. Tamaflu is the #1 antibiotic response for flu patients.

Palin has never gotten nor will she ever get...... out of deep shit
Canadian Swine Flu Inspectors are deep in the (Pig?) shit---Swine Flu inspectors guessed it Swine Flu....
The economy no matter what the experts or talking heads say is just really deep in the shit...
Gm's brand new products are, of course, still deep in the shit--a list of 68 overall problems reported by the owners of the new GM camaro--you know the transformer movie car--read it and they say on south park............Buy Amurican!

this is just cool--the blanket couple in the iconic Woodstock photo and album cover above are
"STILL TOGETHER" hit the article link to see them now...but this is very,very cool.

Tomorrow is the farmers market--the eggplant came in and we have a bunch to sell/give along with cukes, flowers, 3 different kinds of peppers, herbs, Zuucks--the new product this week is big sunflower heads--no tomatoes yet for us-maybe soon. A always our forays into public capitalism are strange events. The farmers market is our Obama, community building, social capital good deed.......we'll see...

take your time.........make it count.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

I have these dreams at night sometime-- we own an Airstream trailer...
Not one of those big huge Airstream's---but rather the tiniest one called a Bambi. 16 feet long. Just a kitchen, a bathroom, a bed
and us. I dream about it. I did last night---for a little while anyway.

My REM dream state is filled with visions of little tiny, organized campsites, surrounded by trees, the dogs lie snoozing beside us... my wife and i sit in aluminium chairs under the bambi awning talking, laughing, smoking, reading, photographing, philosophizing.

I should not, by any stretch of the imagination be having these dreams. I should without difficulty shake off these dreams based on real life experience...We lived in our 30 foot motor home for 4 months during the last house was not easy to say the least. In fact we sold the motor home as soon as we moved due to this experience. Try showering for work in 1/2 of a phone booth, confront the cold winter, and be unable to stretch out in any direction for four months. It did kill the common human retirement dream of RV living. This winter living in the motor home taught us we did not want the RV full timers dream. I still have these little bambi airstream dreams, regardless of the motorhome experience and the process of having these dreams, both day and night and the way they stop is bothering me.

My dreams ignore the problems we had with daily life in the motor home....they whisper to me that, owning an Airstream Bambi would be for the simple fun of life when you have shucked off the boot of the man on your neck and retired--to enjoy and putz with.....
There are distinct advantages I muse in my dreams, I see them. This airstream is small enough to fit in the driveway. It can be pulled by a the smallest, most fuel efficient SUV/pickup that is currently manufactured much like a little Toyota Rav4. It's silver in the dreams, silver to match the bambi.

We can travel when we wish, in my dreams. New Mexico has most excellent parks, or go to visit my wife's friends and relatives. When at home the bambi is a driveway guest house....but...then something happens-------------the screaming voices---begin to appear.
"We'd have to purchase a vehicle along with the bambi", the internal voices start screaming at me----"what about cost"--- "you don't NEED this"....."what about spending money" .........what"you don't NEED this"............what about.........what about.....
....."you are stupid"....what about money..... The voices against rise in a high pitched death like squeal...and then the dream is gone--vanished and I am lost......the bambi and the campsite disappear---because of the voices....
and then the Architect takes over.............

Perhaps, it's really my Id, my subconscious---i actually prefer to think of that voice i hear as the character from the Matrix. The Architect.........
My Architect believes that his theory regarding my life is correct. It is based completely on logic, reasoning and examination of the path my life has taken. It is most certainly not based on hopes, wishes, dreams or rewards for effort or behavior.
My architect's theory is that after working, legally, non stop, full time, since the exact day I turned 12 years old---my program is to---- work and die.
My architect believes that a lifetime of endless work is my program. Examining the data, the evidence the Architect always, always comes to the same conclusion---time and time and time again.
My architect points out that all external evidence from my past and present supports his conclusion. I have never not worked----I have never had more than 14 days without working.... I try to fight against the logic of this...I desperately do not accept this program as my outcome... work and die? It has been an impossibility to offer my architect a contradictory theory that has any real, hard evidence behind it. I have been unable to offer my architect a scenario with any real evidence that states, NO, this is what will occur, this is my program. This is what will happen...... I can provide nothing...I have done nothing but work, my entire life. I cannot remember being free it was taken away so long ago. I have no alternative program, no previous facts. I never quit work to find myself, to paint for a year, or just because i wanted to quit............I have zero evidence that work and die is not my program----I have nothing but fleeting REM dreams, and daydreams of what i might do.... that are becoming harder and harder to produce or sustain. How do i fight his program, only with daydreams that exist for brief moments before the logic/stupid/money voices destroy the little world i try to create in my head. How can might be, can be, could happen, stand against the Architect's army of was what is known, what has always been, and what is occurring now?
I am so tired of dreams that don't last. They are becoming harder to create and hold even for a brief moment night or day...maybe that's what my Architect is telling me---I know I am being told something in the dreams that still cling to life and the process of their destruction------maybe my dreams have lost. Maybe I have lost.

Friday, July 17, 2009

Neither a good nor a bad week---no farmers market for us this Saturday---not enough produce came in during the week to supply both us and to cover a table for public sale---so we sat this week out-----leaving some vegetables on the vine to grow larger for next week. It is weird that even tho smaller, younger vegetables taste better---people want size for their money even at the farmers market as compared to tasty....

This week was a week where i lived in my head. That happens to me sometimes. The thought experiments going on in there are way more powerful and to me, more real that what occurs out there, with you. I don't go inside because of the outside---I expect outside to be stupid, confusing, and ridiculous--that's just the way it is. I turn to the, inside my head existence, to complete my understanding of what is going on around me and make decisions based on my own judgement of input from out there. I reexamined my judgement on self sufficiency based on several recent reports on the economy in the media and of course my thought examination included the economy's effect on the subsequent future of our society. Information input is constantly varying--------the complete spectrum of media sources print, online and broadcast,
screams "recovery" on any reported economic improvement on any little numeric symbol that they can hang their hat on. When I go inside to figure this out for myself, because of a conflict in what i am seeing
and researching--between media input and what i am seeing/feeling my solution, my output is that reports of economic improvement are false.
Bear in mind that i am often wrong (most recently on gas prices), it's not that i think/believe that I know better, i just want to decide for myself. The result of being in my head this week is that regardless of media reports I see no improvement. I am still planning on making do by ourselves. Continuing to stockpile and live a self-sufficient lifestyle.... The result of looking inside and making my own judgements is that there is a large number probability that the current economic situation is just the beginning of our slide to children of men status.
Living inside my head this week---thinking,contemplating, evaluating, I believe there is a large number probability that Swine Flu will return with greater potency in the upcoming colder weather seasons. I purchased masks for my wife and I in advance of the next flu season. My true judgement is that this is not over as the media broadcasts.My judgement is that we will not have the capability, leadership or infrastructure to handle a Flu problem if one does indeed occur. Therefore my emphasis on self-sufficiency is not misplaced based on the evidence. I came to the overall conclusion that my philosophy on the end of the American empire, the end of globalism, the end of MacMansionism, and the attack of peak oil----------all these theories still contain large number probability of occurrence pretty much at any moment. The concept of when--or a time factor as in occurring overnight or over a long descent time frame is immaterial. The long term descent is already in progress. The overnight problem development is dependent on external factors that an individual such as myself can never see.
Living is my head is not supposed to be good--in fact I've had people tell me that i live in my head too much. It's my method of coping-----of determining the right path for me.

The instant communications that we have now means that anyone who would care, knows that Walter Cronkite, who was known as "the most trusted man in America" is dead. Persons my age remember he was the one who broke the news to us that Kennedy was dead. The moment that changed our society......He actually outlasted broadcast journalism. Real journalism on television died 20 years ago. He lived a good solid,honest life and that's the way it is.

Just random items i saved while surfing--items that made me stop and think or just mumble WTF?
Besides culturally trashing our country WalMart appears to be the place to go in Florida if you wish to get rattlesnake bit while shopping--ugh--
Cracked, which i just started visiting on the web is an excellent, kinda twisted humor site that appeals to my baser instincts. A link to a list of theirs titled "10 Things that will not end well."
another interesting list from WIRED the top ten endearing habits of a geeky spouse.

This is a very cool graphic--from USA Today--showing the construction of the International Space Station. It shows the different elements assembling.

Apparently Simon Pegg and his crew are working on a new film "PAUL".
From what i can read about it a bunch of weird buds set off in an RV to discover what's really going on at AREA 51. This should end up well.

Ask more questions----people like it when you ask questions about them or what they are doing. Give away good vegetables to friends.